My pen is alive again!
I know I haven’t blogged in a while. Part of it is work responsibilities keeping me busy, and the other part is that I was tired of hearing my voice. I kept hearing myself and it all sounded the same. And, if I can be real honest for a second, ever since the book came out, my pen has been dead. Try as I may, I have not been able to write, a thing, just my repetitive blogs. But last night, I had a breakthrough of sorts, and my pen was resurrected. So, I want to post a poem I just wrote. It is as of yet untitled, and I’m still working on it, but I would love to hear what you think…peace y’all
7.13.06
Standing here squeezing both hands to my middle
Trying in vain to catch the water between my fingers
Praying that I could stop it
Before it all began to melt away
Then
Here came you
I was doing just fine
Solid in my ice cold melody
Carefully humming my ice cold blues
Frozen against the ability to remain cold
Wanting the possibility of remaining stone
Until, You kissed me
I told myself that I was going to be fine
A strong, independent sista, doing it for herself
Living my life on platinum
Rejoicing in my full bloom
Until, you kissed me
And just like Adam because of Eve
I was suddenly able to see EVERYTHING around me
My eyes could see my need to hide behind my accomplishments
And my need to feel important
And I became aware of my need
My need to be touched and teased
My need to be held and squeezed
To wake up with your breath on my neck
To grin stupidly when I get that text
But most importantly
To know,
Because you said so
That you feel the same as me
I see that I’ve gotten so good at keeping my temperature frozen
Pausing time just when I feel that I’m about to melt
Taking that moment to recollect myself
Reform my frozen pieces until they fit
But your lips grazed mine
Gently at first
As though you were asking if it was okay
To take my breath away
And as your hands grazed the back of my neck
I felt the first drop begin to fall
And this time
I couldn’t move to catch it
I let it continue to fall
And soon it was followed by another
And while the drops continued to travel along the length of my body
I paused and looked into your eyes
Blinking quietly at the realization of your touch
Asking silently if it was okay to give my breath away
And I didn’t realize that I was numb
Until you kissed me
