Brandelyn: Lyrical Contradiction

            A Brand new wish...    A few weeks ago, I talked about wishes and how I wished for more time in the day and whatever...but now, I have a whole new wish. I wish that people came with labels. Seriously, when you meet someone you immediately see the surface craziness and steer clear of them before it’s too late. Think of how much easier life would be if a big “Crazy and Deranged” sign hung over that man’s head at the club, letting you know to steer clear, or if you are into that kind of thing, let the crazy people mesh together in harmony and let those of us who are not partial to that particular lifestyle mesh together in harmony. See how easy that is. And I say let all of the surface issues be present because if you knew everything up front, it wouldn’t be any fun getting to know each other. But if you knew off the bat that he was crazy or at least had crazy tendencies, we wouldn’t have to worry about changing phone numbers or blocking emails or going through any other cautionary steps in an effort to flush crazy out of our lives. I’m just saying.

Robin Thicke...Now, when I first heard his single with Pharrell, I wasn’t impressed. It was extremely repetitive and just boring. The beat wasn’t even that tight. And of course, when you couple all of this with the video with naked women running around on the beach, yeah...not so much...even the song he did with Lil’ Wayne did not impress me. But his new song...Lost without you...got me so hard, I went out and immediately bought the CD and let me say that it is GREAT!!! I am officially a fan. And because it just came out, it’s on sale, so please holler at it! 9.99...you can’t beat that with a stick.

Freedom: There is such an amazing freedom in being young. I love that we can make decisions, and make mistakes and completely change our lives around on a whim and learn from them, and still have the time, energy and capabilities to fix things if they go wrong. Case in point, my move to New York. I dropped everything, literally and moved completely across the country to a foreign land, no job, no money and a rented room in an apartment with a crazy person. I mean think about it, when in your life are you going to have that kind of freedom? When in life are you able to just pick up and move, then quit the job I did manage to get a week before I hightailed it back to the bay. Again, I ask, when again will I have the chance to just live my life like its Golden? I feel like if I were to do something drastic, or move, or cut all my hair off, or whatever, it’s cool because I’m young enough to fix things if they go completely to the left! I love it!

. Last night, I was on the phone and this person asked me what I’m working on as far as writing and all that, and for the first time I answered honestly and said nothing. I’m not working on anything. I’m reading a lot, blogging a lot, journaling a lot, but I’m actually not working on my novel, I haven’t written a new poem in months and for the first time I’m cool with that. It feels good to say that, and I know I need to enjoy this lull because as I get deeper into my career, these moments will few and far between. So, no, I’m now working on anything, I don’t know when the new novel will be done, and for the first time I’m not worried about it.

Cars: So, I am getting ready to buy my first car and I had no idea how much research goes into this process. Right now, I’m going through the whole Kelly Blue book and car fax research phase, but dang! I thought you just went to the dealership, pointed to a car you liked, signed on the dotted line and life was great. But no, not so much, not the case. It is exciting though. It’s been quite a while since I have owned a car, *moment of silence for Andy the Audi...but I am ready to move into this new phase of my life. I’m excited!

Quotes...I’m going to end this blog with a quote. Last night, someone expressed an opinion of me that really hurt my feelings. Of course I had to truly evaluate where this comment was coming from, but as a symbol to myself, letting me know that I am not going to dwell on this person or their opinion of me any longer, I am going to quote Madea and say :It ain’t what they call you, its what you answer too...”

Amen...

Peace Y’all!