Brandelyn: Lyrical Contradiction

And Sometimes I sit

and sometimes I sit
down at my typewriter
and i think
not of someone
cause there isn't anyone
to think
about and i wonder
is it worth it

~Niklki Giovanni

Most of us love from our need to love not
because we find someone deserving

most of us forgive because we have trespassed not
because we are magnanimous

most of us comfort because we need comforting
our ancient rituals demand that we give
what we hope to receive
and how do we judge a man

~Nikki Giovanni

It’s been a minute since I’ve had the desire to write, but I’m back.

I had to go through some stuff, had to acknowledge some things in my life, but I’m back, Grateful, in hindsight of course,

That depression came to visit

Because now the outlook is new

Friendships and relationships

Are new

My life and things I am trying to do with it

Are new

I had to be down to be able to look up,

And it was terrible and unpleasant,

But the crutches I didn’t even know I was carrying

Had to be released

And I had to learn to walk again

On my own again

Relationships needed to be sold again

Renewed again

Reevaluated again

To be new again

So I’m back.

In a new and different way,

Applying some of the lessons I’ve learned

And making them work for my benefit

So, with that I’m back.

Peace Y’all...

B