Brandelyn: Lyrical Contradiction

A few years ago while a student at Citrus College, I used to smoke. Of course i use the term "smoke" loosely as I simply inhaled and exhaled quickly, never actually fully breathing in the vapors, but never the less, i used to smoke. I started because i was completely stressed out. I was taking 18 units, working 2 jobs and was the Student Body President of the school, all within a 5 month semester and your girl was stretched to the limit. So I picked up smoking, using the brief moments that i took out every couple of hours to just stop and breathe, inhale and exhale my little stick of nicotine and contemplate my life. Obviously I stopped smoking after the semester ended and I was allowed to chill out for a moment, but ever since then, I have not picked up another addiction. I have noticed that all great artists seem to have some sort of addiction. It's usually drugs or alcohol or something random, but there is an addiction none the less. When someone, specifically an artist is so consumed with their craft, there is always an need for escape. I thought about smoking again, but my asthmatic bronchitis basically prevents that from happening, and I had a really strong cup of coffee that tasted like cigarrettes and realized that i actually despise the taste of the things. I can't do the whole alcoholic thing mainly because i can't stand the feeling I get when I'm drunk and my head feels too heavy for my head and suddenly I become a human bobble head. No Tanto Mucho. I thought about using men as an addiction, but zzzzzzzzz...next idea...For a minute there, Feeding Frenzy 2 was my addiction. I would spend tons of time swimming through the animated ocean sucking up fish growing bigger and trying to get to the next level. But with Dino's constant attidude problems and tendency to completely shut off just at the critical moment, I had to give that up. I thought of using food as an addiction, but with the detox I'm doing, I find it hard to even eat a regular meal much less even induldge in anything extra so that won't work. Perhaps when I get my new laptop *that's right Dino...I said it... I'll be able to pick up on Feeding Frenzy 2 where I left off, but i have a feeling that without all of the constant interuptions, I'll be able to get through it pretty quickly and it won't be as fun. So I suppose for now, I will continue to bury myself underneath my work and hope that some sort of suitable addiction will come along.

Peace Y'all

B