Brandelyn: Lyrical Contradiction

Disclaimer: I was too sleepy to edit this...so....yeah... 

Man, I have no idea what it is about today, but I cannot get it together. I woke up half an hour late, but decided to get up and walk anyway. I made it slowly through my walk, listening to about 50 songs on my mp3 player, practically sleeping as I strolled, barely making it through. When I got home, it took me forever to get into the shower, get out of the shower, get dressed and get out of the door. As I was driving, I was incredibly sleepy and I had no idea why. I went to bed pretty early, but who knows. I got to work and realized that I left my laptop at home and am now going back to the days of the underground using one of the main computers to type this blog. My boss keeps sticking his head in on me, sure that I am doing something I shouldn’t, (I am, but for real, back up off me) so I keep another work related document open and ready to go, just in case. 8 weeks and counting. I think I may just go home now and work from home because whatever this heaviness is, I can’t fight it. I’m about to go to sleep as we speak? Is it because I’ve been working out 5 days a week? I thought working out was supposed to give you more energy and make you love life more! Since I got serious, I’ve been crazy sleepy and unable to wake completely up. What’s up with that? Maybe it’s my diet too. I’ve been living on strawberries and whipped cream since our book club meeting on Saturday. In fact, yesterday was the first real meal I’d had for at least a couple of days (Shout out to my bay area mama for the Easter Feast!) Whatever it is, I can’t call it, but I’m tired of waking up in my own apartment, trying to figure out where I am. This is crazy. Normally in this situation, I would simply stop working out and go back to my old ways, but my walks in the morning have become ‘my time.’ I can work out whatever thoughts have been muddled in my head; I can plan out everything I need to get done for the day; basically that is my alone time to not have to do anything but be me and having that time gets me through the day. But, um, something is going to have to work itself out because I can’t feel great for an hour and a half and feel like a zombie for the other 22 and half. Something has got to change. Yeah, I think I’m going to home and work from home the rest of the day. My narcolepsy is keeping me from being productive in the office. LOL! Hopefully I’ll get it together! Peace!

B