Big Baby Moment...and?
As strong and as independent as I am, sometimes, you just need someone to come take care of you. I realize that I do a lot. I do a lot of wheeling and dealing, balancing both of my jobs, my career, church responsibilities, friends, family, life, all without a car mind you and then there are times like this when I all I can do is sit on my couch, concentrate on my breathing and wish that someone would come over, make me tea, rub my head and tell me that it will be okay.
I had to go to the Emergency room on Thursday because I had a high fever, my body hurt and I could not breathe to save me. The ER experience was much better than any I’ve ever had (Shout out to Alta Bates) but once I got home, I was on my own again. You should have seen me trying to fix myself some food, holding on to the counter for dear life because everything was spinning, waking up in the middle of the night wheezing and coughing because I couldn’t get enough air, watching my apartment turn into a bigger pile of rubble because I don’t have the energy to clean. Times like this I really miss my Mommie. Sometimes, you just need someone to take care of you. To call and check on you and say you know, B, I can hear that you are struggling, do you need anything? I would probably say no, but just being asked is really nice.
I am grateful for my girls Pia and Crystal. Without them this experience would have been a million times worse. I love you ladies. Alright, I’m going back to sleep now.
Peace
B
