Now I realize that love is fine...
This morning I was reading the first chapter of Romans, and verse 15 had a line in it that made me pause. It said “Everyone I meet—it matters little whether they're mannered or rude, smart or simple—deepens my sense of interdependence and obligation. (Message Bible). This sentence made me completely pause and I grabbed my journal and started writing down whatever came to my mind. As I wrote, the Lord spoke to me and reminded me that it is a gift and a blessing to be called to love people. Paul wrote said that everyone he meets reminds him of his interdependence (his need for other people, his need to feel love and have love from other people) and his obligation to give the love and spread the message of Christ to other people.
It hit me that what I do everyday is an amazing opportunity to have this feeling Paul talked about. I realize that I actually GET to love people. I GET to bring smiles to people’s faces. I GET to help someone have a better day. This is a simple revelation to get, but it was necessary for me to gain that understanding because it in turn made me think about myself.
Paul spoke about interdependence. Needing other people and needing love from other people. For a long time, years, I have shut myself off to love. I was in a very serious relationship that ended, because it needed to, and not badly, or painfully, but for a long time, that void caused me to literally run from love. I never let people get too close and any attempt at a romantic relationship was met with my classic blank stare and world famous slow blink. I never even gave it a chance. But this morning as I was walking to work, Rahsaan Patterson "You make life so good" began to play in my ear and his words brought about another realization. "You took away my pride, Made me open up my eyes, now I realize that love is fine, And it’s a feeling I can’t deny.."
There is nothing wrong with opening yourself up to love. To allowing people to care for and about you. To keep an open mind to the possibilities of love and relationships and allow life to happen as it may. I used to be a fighter, now I am learning to bend. I suppose that is a huge part of this process called maturing.
I acknowledge that there is something wonderful about the feeling that possibilities bring and I have been denying myself of it because of plain and simple fear. No more. I am opening myself up love and no longer allowing fear to control any aspect of my life. And "Nothing can make me bend, Or stray from this love again..." I am open now, and my blank stare has been removed. Tomorrow is a new day. I wonder how life will surprise me.
Peace Y'all
B
It hit me that what I do everyday is an amazing opportunity to have this feeling Paul talked about. I realize that I actually GET to love people. I GET to bring smiles to people’s faces. I GET to help someone have a better day. This is a simple revelation to get, but it was necessary for me to gain that understanding because it in turn made me think about myself.
Paul spoke about interdependence. Needing other people and needing love from other people. For a long time, years, I have shut myself off to love. I was in a very serious relationship that ended, because it needed to, and not badly, or painfully, but for a long time, that void caused me to literally run from love. I never let people get too close and any attempt at a romantic relationship was met with my classic blank stare and world famous slow blink. I never even gave it a chance. But this morning as I was walking to work, Rahsaan Patterson "You make life so good" began to play in my ear and his words brought about another realization. "You took away my pride, Made me open up my eyes, now I realize that love is fine, And it’s a feeling I can’t deny.."
There is nothing wrong with opening yourself up to love. To allowing people to care for and about you. To keep an open mind to the possibilities of love and relationships and allow life to happen as it may. I used to be a fighter, now I am learning to bend. I suppose that is a huge part of this process called maturing.
I acknowledge that there is something wonderful about the feeling that possibilities bring and I have been denying myself of it because of plain and simple fear. No more. I am opening myself up love and no longer allowing fear to control any aspect of my life. And "Nothing can make me bend, Or stray from this love again..." I am open now, and my blank stare has been removed. Tomorrow is a new day. I wonder how life will surprise me.
Peace Y'all
B
