Personal Pep Talk
“My role as a black woman is to be free…by any means.” Nikki Giovanni
My mind has been drifting lately. I have been trying to not to look at my dreams, because it is almost like teasing myself. My dreams have been like watching a cake in the oven. You can smell it, see it rising, but it is not ready yet and there is nothing you can do but wait for the right time. And you are happy to do it because you know that it is going to be amazing and completely worth the wait.
My mind has been drifting lately. I have been trying to not to look at my dreams, because it is almost like teasing myself. My dreams have been like watching a cake in the oven. You can smell it, see it rising, but it is not ready yet and there is nothing you can do but wait for the right time. And you are happy to do it because you know that it is going to be amazing and completely worth the wait.
However, in those moments when I do have a slight lapse in judgment and I allow myself to dream, I am comforted by the thoughts. I think the main thing I seek is freedom. I know that when my dreams take me to the places that God said they would, my life won’t be my own, but I think, and maybe I am just being idealistic, that it won’t feel like work because I will finally be doing what I love. I will finally have the FREE time to write, create, paint, think. I will finally have the FREE space to dress how I want, have the personality I want and create my own environment. I will be FREE to enjoy the artistry of my fellow artists and get excited when our ideas begin to blend together. I will be FREE. I hope.
We never know what the future will bring, and I guess that is why God allows us to dream. To find a place to hide from the pressures of every day life. The wonderful thing about being a dreamer too is that it keeps you positive. You know that no matter what is going on you have to remember the dream. Nikki Giovanni said “We can’t afford to be negative. You have to take care of business where you are.” I hear you Nikki and I completely agree. I can either doom myself to a monotonous life, wasting days doing work that has no real purpose, or I can handle my business, check my attitude and continue to work on my craft and prepare myself for the day that that dream comes out of the oven, has cooled and is ready for me to enjoy.
I am considering this blog to be a personal pep talk. So let me say, Keep your head up B! God gave you promises and there is no way they can fail. You are a dreamer and you will be living your dreams when the time is right! Everything is going to work out just fine, so enjoy these moments and embrace life. Because really, laughter, long hugs, strong breezes, sunshine and Saturday mornings is really what life is all about.
Peace Y’all
B
Peace Y’all
B
