Emotional Asthma
Emotional Asthma
2/2/10
Pain in my chest
Tight grip
Skin burning with anxiety
What happened?
I was breathing
Sucked in all the air I could hold and smiled
I remembered how to do it
And my world for a moment felt free
And just as suddenly
My breathe escaped me
Comically mimicking my inability
To just be
The burning sensation
Caused by tears that refuse to fall
Makes my eyes itch
And beg
No, plead for sleep
For Relief
For a moment that rests in my reach
An escape
From this feeling
That I just can’t seem to find
The right/correct/eloquent/articulate
String of words
To describe
The feelings trapped inside
The bare blank dry opening of my mouth
I need to get out of here
Out of my skin
Out of my head
Out of these thoughts
That are keeping me bound
Wound up on a tight string
Unable to wail or scream
Release these quiet emotions
That hurt every inch of my being
Where did I go?
Checking my electronic connections
Like a manic
Asthmatic
Grasping for the inhaler
That will help me breathe
Hoping for some a lifeline
A quick snatch of time
A look, a glance, any sure fire sign
That someone understands
This pain
To physical to be emotional
And too emotional to be ignored
These words carry all of my hope for relief
Please, please, please
Help me
Find my peace
© 2010 Brandelyn N. Castine
