Be Easy...
I made a couple of decision this morning as I sat in my window drinking tea and watching the rain fall. Sure, I had already overslept and was definitely going to be late for work, but I figured, I might as well enjoy the moment instead of stressing out. So, as I sat there, watching the rain, sipping my peach tea, I realized that the time had come for Brandelyn to reemerge. So, faithful readers, I present to you my new and improved plan of action.
1. I am going to start painting again. I just placed an order of journals and I’m going to head to my favorite art store and get a few canvases just to get it flowing. My goal is to create some pieces to donate for an upcoming event. I have realized that if I have a goal in mind, then I am a lot more productive. And I have been slacking on a few orders for journals, so now is the time to make amends. I brought my sketchpad and famous Lakers pencil bag to work and during my break, I am going to start flushing out ideas. I’m very, very excited.
2. I started working out again, but this time I am doing it with a different mentality. Instead of stressing myself out about losing weight and feeling totally defeated and discouraged when I don’t work out or if it starts raining and totally messing up my plan, now I am working out for the simple reason that it feels good. It is a genuine stress reliever and it prompts me to start my day off right with prayer and breakfast. Two things I don’t visit frequently enough.
3. Unfortunately, or fortunately, simply put, I had to cut some people off. Yes, I had to trim my branches so I can grow. I found this time that it wasn’t difficult. I have discovered that I am deathly allergic to negativity, whether it is directed at me specifically or not and I am making conscious efforts to surround myself with people who know the importance of speaking life. I can’t hang with folks who are dissatisfied with their life and refuse to do anything about it but complain. I can’t hang with folks whose sole purpose is to stunt my growth. I can’t hang with folks who are not comfortable with their own identity and cannot handle my light. I need to be around people who are excited about their potential and are willing to work toward it. I need breathing space. You can’t breathe and grow around weeds so I had to clean out my garden so I can enjoy it.
I think the bottom line is that I am ready to live, be free, enjoy life, seek my path and follow it. I am learning to enjoy the bumps in the road because once I get over it, I have learned something brand new. I’ve been quiet lately, just spending time with one or two people who are uplifting. It’s been feeding my soul and I need that. So all and all, I am in a very good space. I am excited about the possibilities and ready to start over, fresh, new. Suddenly I have to be protective of myself, my feelings, my joy. They are too big to tuck away inside of me, they have to shine free, but now it’s important for me to figure out the best method for me to let it all hang out. I’m excited and I am calm. Calm because I know I am making the right choices and I am doing what I have to do in order to achieve my goals. The folks who don’t understand weren’t meant to, and that is what it’s about. =D
Peace Y’all
B
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