Brandelyn: Lyrical Contradiction

I fell

Slipped

Tripped

Landed

Into my own arms

Melted into my own embrace

Resting safely

In the first place I could find that was simply enough to carry the wieght

Of all that I am

All that is me

Finally I understand how important it is

And what it truly means

To fall in love

With me

            I recently learned a very important lesson. There have been a lot of changes going on in my world and I have had to learn how to deal with the voices. I have seen that whenever you move into something new, when you get a new job, or have a positive move in your career, or you join an organization, or you get a new car, a new house, or whatever it is, there is always going to be someone around who wants to throw water on your fire. There is always going to be someone who wants to try to break you down and make you feel bad for whatever reason, most likely jealousy, but that is a whole other story. It is so sad that people feel the need to do this, but on the other hand, it is so necessary because it taught me how to simply shut out the voices.

            Anyone who knows me, knows how sensitive I am. They know that I will spend hours mulling over a word or a comment or a look, trying to figure out what I did wrong. Sometimes things are justified but sometimes people are blinding by the light in you and want to try to black it out. I have had to learn to simply not let that happen. I have to take the fact that folks spend time sitting around talking about me and what I’m doing as a compliment. I have to rest in the promises that God has given me and know that with that comes a lot of challenges. I also have to rest in the fact that God has given me the strength to deal with all of those challenges.

            I am daily realizing my worth. It is not in my talents, or my bank account, or my status, but it is simply in the fact that God created me, and He created me to look, feel, think, create, dream, laugh, dance, sing exactly as He envisioned. That is enough for me. Even as I am writing this I am getting encouraged because God is whispering to me that He loves me. He loves me. He loves me. And that is all that matters.

            So let people talk. Let them say what they want to say. Acknowledge how you feel about it and then move on. It is important to have people say and do negative things to and about you because it makes you appreciate those who love and support you all the more. Keep your focus on God’s promises. Hide the word in your heart and remember that God will set the table for you in the presence of your enemies. You are special, fearfully and wonderfully made and that is something that should be celebrated. Rejoice in the fact that people can’t handle your light and enjoy the fact that people who love you will throw on a pair of sunglasses and get right in step with you.

            Life is too amazing, too beautiful, too precious to be wasted on negativity. If you aren’t happy with something or someone in your life, you have the power to make all of the changes you need to make. My thing lately is to LIVE! I know that that sounds simple, but we forget to do it. We forget to smile, laugh, enjoy the breeze, sit in the sun, read a book, give a hug, call someone and tell them that you love them, we forget to live.

            I keep hearing in church that ten is a number of completion. That this is the year that God is going to close all of the loops and holes and bring all of the things you have been waiting for to light. I can say first hand that that is the absolute truth. I never ever thought that my dream of becoming a Delta would ever come true, but guess what… OO-OOP. God brought it to fruition in His timing and it was perfect timing and I love the women I came in with and under. God gave me promises about my writing career and as I sit here waiting for confirmation from nationally syndicated shows who want to interview me about U.G.L.Y.  I KNOW that God is in the mix. I am settling into my light. I refuse to hide it, I refuse to run from it. I refuse to be ashamed of it. God created me to be all that I am, so I am going to rest in that.

            Be who you are! Let people talk!! Walk in your light!!! And know that you are an original and worthy of all the talk! I am swallowing these words too! Please believe that!!

Peace Y’all

B