All I needed
I used to think I needed the attention
To see smiles and eyes beaming with pride
To hear the loud thunder of applause
To feel the heat of the lights beaming down on my face
And to hear the words
Great job
Well done
Thank you for all that you do
I need you
I used to breathe for it
Jump up and dance and scream for it
Flail my arms
Kick my feet
Comb my hair out wide enough to snatch attention
Wear my heels high enough for them to see my swag
Dip myself in honey oil and expensive jewels
Just so I could sparkle and shine
And get caught in the light of their eyes for it
But the curtain has closed
And the lights have dimmed
The sounds of glory have faded and it’s just me
Suddenly aware of exactly what that means
I used to crave the attention
Thought that I needed the noise
Thought that I needed the acknowledgement
The fans
The waves
The smiles
The hugs
Thought I couldn’t make it out here alone
Thought I needed the support of man to help me move on
Thought I was right
Didn’t realize how much I was wrong
When I finally allowed the quiet
To settle in and rest
I finally discovered
That the only thing I ever truly needed
Was plain and simply
God
© 2010 Brandelyn N. Castine
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